Monday, December 12, 2011

mereka membuat ku tersenyum

Alhamdulillah..staff - staff di bawah jagaan ku mampu membuatkan aku tersenyum mendengar mereka berbual dan bergurau.. sesama sendiri..alhamdulillah lawak jenaka mereka membuatkan aku tertawa sendiri..di dalam pejabat ku...hari nie mereka gembira menerima elaun hujung tahun..aku tumpang gembira dengan mereka sedikit sebanyak mengubat..kesunyian di hati..semoa esok merupakan hari yang lebih baik..dan hari yang ada..dan masa yang ada kini juga harus digunakan sebaik mungkin dengan banyak mengingati Allah dan selawat ke atas nabi..

Sunday, December 11, 2011

sabarlah ...

Assalamualaikum..

entry penutup tahun ini penuh dengan nasihat dan pujukan hati ku supaya bersabar..setelah suami ku berkursus selama 3 bulan aku berjaya tempuhinya,kenapa hati ini semakin rapuh untuk bersabar? hanya tinggal 3 bulan sahaja lagi..kenapa hati ini begitu sensitif..kenapa air mata ku mudah untuk mengalir? kenapa semangat ku tipis? di mana semangat itu.tolonglah kembali..

Wednesday, December 7, 2011

Duhai hati tabah lah..sabarlah


Duhai hati,berkali-kali aku memesan padamu..tolonglah menjadi tabah..dan sabar..hati ini semakin rapuh..Ya Allah, engkau kuatkanlah hatiku,tabahkan lah hatiku, buatkan hati yang terluka ini semakin mengingatimu..semakin basah berzikir kepadamu..setiap air mataku ini, jadikanlah penguat hati ku..duhai..orang yang tersayang di sekeliling ku , setiap doa dan harapan ku titip kan setiap hari agar, hubungan kita semakin erat dan kukuh walau badai melanda. Allah memilihku menghadapi ujian sebagai tanda kasih Nya pada ku..Aku menitiskan air mataku kerana tanda kasih ku pada orang yang ku sayangi...dan tanda betapa aku lalai mengingati Allah di saat kesenangan.

Sunday, November 27, 2011

blog Umar


sedih, blog umar telah diremove oleh pihak Google..jadi aku bertekad akan menulis semula..never give up!

Friday, October 28, 2011

Journey to 30'



Hi..

Today 29 oct 2011, 0300 hrs what I’m gonna write? That is my frequent question,hahaha, for the first in 2011 I am writing back here, so, now is my story along my carrier that I had been pouring here for several times . looking back at the early of January 2011, I faced with the madness from my boss, he said that I was not productive as an inspector, sadly never gave progress work. Beside not satisfied with my on leave pattern, he thought me have discipline and reputation problem …

Oh my lappy..since april 2009…was writing here..poured my sadness of my job..my feeling and everything..2009 until 2011,that’s not a short term, someone can have a master degree or 2 or 3 children, fat or slimmer, married or maintain single , and anything can happen in our life, 3 years backward, what I had gained for?

January 2011 : my superior officer mad with me
:For the first time I gather my team to start a gotong royong monthly


May 2011 : reading a book how to get from what you are to where you to be automatically enthusiasme me with the topic of “ do it now”!..so i started my may 2011 with had a meeting with my team and told them that we wold have a meeting or discussion for every two months.alhamdulillah..my team seem began to give full commitment with me.

June 2011 : SINGAPORE OUTSTATION.



July 2011 : let AL QURAN..be our friend being in our heart

: join Usrah


August 2011 : The best thing.. got a few job from my officer eventhought through hard way..in Ramadan 2011.


September 2011 : successfully did a “makan-makan” or called it as “open Office” at my office

October 2011 : had a SPA….began to care my head to toe..hihihih…be more fashioned in Office attire. Choose BELLE as my style because look like stylish Islamic fashion and femine and the materials really inspire me..urmm..we must present ourself in professional manner =)

Car breakdown : ooh really touched with the helping hand of my team.. replace my battery car and punctured tyre.

Emcee : hi im back as formal emcee!!


This journey make me realize that Allah love us..grant us with the beautiful life and I see my improvement in office management , handling social work , and realise I’m still searching my interest ..yes my interest..because when you know what you love to, you will focus!!!!.. and you KNOW your STRENGHT…I love knowledge. I love reading, love world issues especially humanity..so quickly I google..HUMANITY..my keyword in my head. This is what I got from MR.WIKIPEDIA ……
.The humanities are academic disciplines that study the human condition, using methods that are primarily analytical, critical, or speculative, as distinguished from the mainly empirical approaches of the natural sciences.
The humanities include ancient and modern languages, literature, history, philosophy, religion, and visual and performing arts such as music and theatre. The humanities that are also regarded as social sciences include technology, history, anthropology, area studies, communication studies, cultural studies, law and linguistics. Scholars working in the humanities are sometimes described as "humanists".[1] However, that term also describes the philosophical position of humanism, which some "antihumanist" scholars in the humanities reject.

Immerse yourself TO KNOW your potential……=)
I am working for it . to end my year 2011 .
And this is the listing.
- AL QURAN
- The knowledge of ISLAM. Searching USRAH. Or any class.
- OURSELF IS a part of DAKWAH. Be a good muslim.
- Know my study interest.AND preparation on that area. IEALTS.
- Excellent English writing and speaker
- SLIM
- TECHNICAL THINGKING or TACTICAL ? SHOULD BE because I am part of them.
While listing all of this on this page . I’ve found this in google..7 things to do before im 30’s…a comedy genre film. I should watch this maybe there are a few things that will boost me to accomplish my ambition.
leave this page with the satisfaction.



















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Sunday, October 2, 2011

goal!


Fatimah ismail, if you don't get crystal clear about what you want and what you need to focus on to achieve your goals, you'll waste the remaining 3 months of this year with little progress to show.

must search !!! practical strategies for creating the clarity i need to develop greater focus. ...how!!!

Monday morning


Assalamualaikum..

alhamdulillah pagi nie selamat sampai di pejabat tepat pukul 10 pg kenapa lambat?sebab hari ini perlu uruskan urusan bank awal pagi. Namun perkara paling seronok sebenarnya adalah dapat sidai kain dan lipat baju, serta buatkan bubur si kecil ku..apabila semua perkara berjaya dilakukan di pagi isnin maka hari - hari kerja ku berikutnya InsyaAllah akan aku lalui dengan tenang...amin

Sesampai di pejabat , aku bertegur dengan anggota dan tenaga yg dibawaah selian ku.. oooh nampaknya semua nampak genbira di pagi isnin ..alhamdulillah, pantas tangan ku menyususn kertas2 cuti dan off untuk aku sahkan dan tanda tangan..hari ini tiga orang sahaja memohon off dan cuti. selepas itu aku nikmati nescafe campur milo sebagai pembuka puasa ku..hehe pada mulanya niat nak puasa isnin tapi salah sorang anggota kat sini nak belanja nasi Arab...urmm..x jadi puasa heehehe.

so sekarang apa yg aku buat??? sekarang tgh kumpol mooood nak buat teks mc dan buat kira2 belanjawan program yg aku terlibat..otak ni mcm perlukan suntikan..lantas aku menghadap filem favourite ku sambil menaip di blog ini...filem shopaholic..hehhe..so sekarang semangat dah datang..sebab aircond dibilik ku semakin sejuk dan pewangi bilik yang sedang berpusing sedang mewangi seluruh bilik urrmm segar.okey start kijeeee!!!!! happy monday ya!

Wednesday, August 10, 2011

pedih

Ya Allah Ya tuhan ku..sesungguhnya hati ku teramat pedih dengan penghinaan ini,pada 11 Ramadan aku menerima perkara sebegini..Kuatkan lah hati ku...marah jauh sekali..kerna aku tidak mahuu mencemar puasa ku..Ya Allah Ya Tuhan Ku kuatkanlah hatiku..cekalkanlah hati ku...ku teguhkan hati ini dengan mengingatkan ujian Rasulullah s.a.w maha hebat dari dugaan ku ini..

Aku bekerja demi rezeki keluarga ku...tabahkanlah hatiku ya Allah....demi rezeki kutelan jua pahit ini..semoga Allah melembutkan hati dan jiwa mereka..Ya Allah

Friday, July 22, 2011

Fatimah please2 take the action now!

Note from Jack

Dear Fatimahismail,
It's heating up!
Things are heating up across the country, and here in Santa Barbara it's no exception! I hope you're staying cool and comfortable.

Even though it's Summertime, this doesn't mean you should slow down the pursuit of your dreams. We're halfway through 2011, and if you haven't made significant progress toward your goals, it might be time for you to focus on strengthening your determination.

High achievers are incredibly persistent, and what fuels them is a relentless determination to achieve their goals, no matter what it takes. To reach our goals, we must have the inner fire to overcome obstacles, believe in our dreams (even when no one supports US), and be willing to sacrifice some short-term pleasures for long-term success.

This quote from Gandhi pretty much sums it up ...

"Every worthwhile accomplishment, big or little, has its stages of drudgery and triumph: a beginning, a struggle and a victory"

Ready to succeed no matter what? Enjoy the articles in today's edition and then dive into the BRAND NEW resources we have for you this month in the Inner Circle Club - over 3 hours of training to help YOU cultivate an attitude of relentless determination!

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Love and Success,

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

Usrah..


Alhamdulillah..aku sangat bersyukur kerana dengan kasih sayang Allah telah mempermudahkan urusan ku untuk menghadiri usrah yang sudah lama ku nantikan...Aku juga bersyukur kerana ditunjukkan jalan oleh Allah untuk berjumpa dengan Kak Ina ( Ustazah Noraslina Jusin ) melalui laman blognya sehinggalah ke laman sosial Fb dan terwujudnya kelas pengajian muslimah...untuk berkongsi ilmu ke arah kebaikan..

Selama ini aku mengikuti laman blog Ustaz Zaharuddin untuk membaca artikel2 yang sangat berguna sebagai panduan ekonomi berlandaskan islam..dari situ aku terjumpa blog ustazah yang banyak membicarakan hal2 pembangunan keluarga berlandaskan Islam..serta panduan2 yang sangat berguna, setelah Ustazah mengeluarkan bukunya Bicaralah atas nama kasih..aku pun turut membeli supaya di masa lapang aku dapat menimba ilmu..

Daripada situ kemudiannya setelah Ustazah dan ustaz pulang ke Malaysia, ustazah bercadang mengadakan kelas pengajian muslimah...terasa sungguh bahagia kerana aku dapat menimba ilmu dengan lebih dekat..alhamdulillah..aku bersyukur sekiranya kita mencari ke arah kebaikan Allah akan menunjukkan kita jalan itu..semoga semangat ku untuk menambah ilmu ..ke arah menjadi muslimah sejati terus menyinar..Ya Allahberilah petunjuk dan hidayah kepada ku dan istiqamahkan diri ku ini..

Wednesday, July 6, 2011

happy day


Assalamualaikum,

hope everybody will feel happy too..today i woke up early in the morning at 5 a.m to prepare my duty as a mother. First, went to the kitchen and prepare my baby food, yes today i made jenahak fish poridge enrich with a few tomatoes and carrots. in 30 minutes waiting for the poridge to get ready , i clear up messy hall, put all the tiny cushion sofa to the right place, placed my baby toy at his playpan, washed dirty clothes using automatic washing machine.

Then..had a shower...Subuh prayer.and get ready with office wear then watch back the poridge..yes..its done..alhamdulillah..That 's all my routine early in the morning, and also a little bit feel happy for this workdays because i had prepared mine and husband office wear on the weekend for a week clothes.So, it's really help me in the morning, i dont have to rush here and there to settle every single housework task in a hurry.


happy!!! because today morning i can send my baby to nanny house together with husband because i can manage my routine early...if not..i need to send alone..because my husband have to leave early to avoid traffic jam,he work at putrajaya.


now i know, it is not easy to be a working mother, time management is the most important thing to do. But before we can manage with time we have to manage our discipline, mental and not to forget our health!..

Office

had a break first , had some chit chat with my sargeant talking about our duty, then starting to concentrate my listing job. meeting time...and my delegation task to my team. Hope the time flies with the positive result.

Tuesday, July 5, 2011

english writting


This is what i read..

English Writing Guide - Learn How To Write / Business Writing / English Creative Writing


Writing is a complex skill that requires time to develop as many elements are weaved together to form one final product. Writing is more than just putting words and sentences together, as it should also address questions of writing purpose (to convince, inform or narrate), audience (friends Vs. business associates, teenagers Vs. University professors), genre (argumentative, descriptive, narrative), style (avoiding sexist and biased language, conciseness, and emphasis), register (formal. Informal, technical, jocular) and format (article, report, contract, letter, e-mail, memo etc.). To achieve a good piece of writing, there are some essential and well defined stages within the writing process that make sure you will actually end up with the piece of writing you intended to have.

Different writing purposes frequently warrant the usage of specific formats, which by convention are expected to be used, using specific headings, graphic layout and specialist terminology. As nearly all writers in all levels, find it sometimes hard to start writing what they have in mind, a good writing template with a ready-made structure, key words and phrases can serve as an excellent springboard. For example, when writing informative texts in expository style for school or for journalistic purposes, it is recommended to use an agreed upon structure for a review article, a student's 5-paragraph essay on Napoleon or a news item. Persuasive writing is based on a strong persuasive style, which empowers opinion essays, newspaper editorials or business proposals. Academic writing, for college or university, expects certain models for writing assignments, from a research report or a book review; through to a lab report, literary analysis, or a term paper; and all the way up to a full thesis.

The world of business writing uses common formats for business e-mails, press releases, financial plans or even simple memos confirming a business meeting. Resumes stand in a category of their own, as various occupations merit various resume styles. Legal documents, such as real estate contracts, power to an attorney or wills, or medical documents such as insurance policies and autopsy reports require careful attention to technicalities. Various letter formats are very useful for letters of resignation, complaint or recommendation.

In contrast to the hard factual approach taken in expository writing, Creative writing lets you give vent to personal thought, subjective feelings and practically anything that comes to mind without having to provide evidence to support arguments. Such writing includes diary entries, personal blogs, love letters and just about any kind of free written reflection. Finally, literary writing, attempted by layman and artist alike, produces narratives for short stories or novellas, lyrical poems and sonnets, and dramatic prose for plays or movie scripts.


English Writing

Being able to convey your ideas in English writing is a basic required skill nowadays, in both the professional and personal spheres. Business English texts such as business plans and business emails, as well as personal texts such as friendly letters should be written in a clear informative writing style in order for the reader to be able to understand them quickly and effectively. To fulfill this purpose, both experienced and novice writers should use a set of stages, commonly known as the writing process.

The Writing Process

Any writing 101 course teaches that writing is an activity that takes time and cannot be treated as a one-step affair. They also know that readers expect much more than just correct grammar; they expect interesting, clearly written, and well organized content. The basic rule of writing says that you need to think about what you are going to write BEFORE you write and go over your writing a few times BEFORE sending it out or publishing. This is because the act of writing is a complicated task, which involves many thought processes all going on at once. In order to produce written material more efficiently, these processes can be broken down into stages. These are defined differently by various approaches, with anywhere between 4 and 10 stages. We suggest the following six stages:

1. planning
2. drafting
3. revising
4. editing
5. proofreading
6. presenting

1. The Planning Stage
It is very difficult and even futile to try and think about WHAT you want to write and HOW you want to phrase it in the same time. In planning, you try to foresee what you want your final text to look like, using the following points:

• Define your writing topic and content area. Narrow your topic down to a specific angle will develop in your text. Make sure you are aware of any specific content or technical requirements you may have from teachers. Research and analyze information sources if needed.

• Calculate the time needed to complete your writing task. Remember that even a 1,500 word college essay may take a few days to properly complete, so do not postpone writing assignments to the last minute!

• Brainstorm and jot down any ideas, thoughts, arguments, words, and phrases you think are relevant to your text.

• Organize your preliminary arguments into an outline following a logical order that would suit the general essay structure of opening, body, and ending. Put ideas in sub-groups that will later develop into paragraphs.

2. The Drafting Stage
When writing the first draft of your text, focus on content only and FORGET about language and mechanical aspects such as grammar, spelling, and punctuation. You must write freely and try to find the best way to communicate your ideas. Do not get stuck checking spelling and other nitty-gritty at this point! That will stop your writing flow! Remember the following points:

• The opening paragraph (introduction) should present the text’s topic. Refrain from using the first person when doing this (No: “ In this essay I will present…”) and prefer a stronger opening technique to entice the reader to keep reading. For example, pose a provocative question, give a testimonial or illustrative story, or present interesting facts on the phenomenon under discussion.

• The body (discussion) paragraphs should each present one idea or aspect of the general topic and begin with a topic sentence that will orient the reader to what follows within the paragraph.

• Provide enough supporting sentences for the topic sentence, using examples, explanations, facts, opinions, and quotes. Consider the expected text length and go into detail accordingly.

• Use connecting words (conjunctions and discourse markers, such as and, or, but, so, because, however, moreover, for example etc.) to logically unite arguments, sentences and paragraphs.

• The ending (conclusion) should present summative remarks and repeat the text’s key idea or thesis in other words. Try to finish with a strong statement that will have your reader asking for more…

• Orient yourself to the appropriate register called for by your audience and purpose of writing. Keep it simple when writing to young children; consider delving into polemics when aiming for university professors…

• Try to diversify the words and phrases you use as much as possible, using synonyms, descriptive and figurative language, while considering the expected writing style of your text.

• If time permits, read your draft very generally and redraft, making immediate global changes you feel are urgent. Don’t be to harsh on yourself and do not focus on fine nuances in meaning at this point.

3. The Revising Stage
No text should be sent out or published without going over it at least once! Twice – even better. You must reread even the shortest business email to prevent any embarrassing mistakes (such as sending the wrong email to the wrong person, to start with). Revising means evaluating your text’s content and making sure you actually wrote what you intended in the planning stage. You may be surprised to hear that revising should take as much time as drafting! Go through the following checklist when revising:

On a global level (text-paragraph), ask yourself:

• Did I actually write on the required topic and used relevant arguments and examples, or digressed inadvertently?

• Is each piece of information relevant to the paragraph it is in? Should I delete certain parts or move them somewhere else in the text? In other words, is your text cohesive and unified around one theme?

• Does each paragraph and sentence logically follow and relate to what’s written before it? Is there enough or too much support to each topic sentence? Change accordingly.

On a local level (sentence-word) ask yourself:

• Did I use suitable connectors to present the logical relations between text segments (cause-effect, general-detail, compare-contrast, chronological order etc.) in order to make the text coherent?

• Did I technically tie ideas together with relevant word choices, apt pronoun reference, and techniques such as parallelism and emphasis?

• Did I diversify sentence types and lengths (from simple to complex, short and concise to long and elaborate)? Consider uniting two consecutive short sentences or dividing a long compound-complex sentence into two shorter ones.

• Did I refrain from no-no’s such as run-ons, fragments, dangling modifiers, wordiness, or inappropriate register? Did I avoid sexist language?

• Did I refrain from repeating the same ideas and words and used a rich and varied vocabulary? Did I use adjectives and adverbs for text enrichment? Did I mainly use my own words?

• Do not attempt showing-off with a fancy word you do not know how to use properly.

4. The Editing Stage
Editing is sometimes considered part of revising, but refers to judging your text for language and technicalities rather than content. This is the time for all you grammar lovers and nitty-gritty enthusiasts to meticulously scan the text for language accuracy.

• Your sentences should adhere to proper word order rules, each containing a subject and a predicate. Use a variety of verb tenses correctly and appropriately (simple, progressive, perfect, and perfect-progressive tenses).

• Be careful with subject-verb agreement issues.

• Use a variety of language constructions to make your writing more precise and educated (comparative structures, relative clauses, conditional sentences, not too much of the passive voice etc.)

• Use a dictionary or spell checker when not sure about spelling. Reread your text again for problematic homonyms (there-their-they’re).

• Use a variety of punctuation marks accurately and consult a style guide when hesitating between a comma, colon, or semi-colon.

• Edit for text mechanics: capitalization, numbering, italics, and abbreviations.

5. The Proofreading Stage
Proofreading comprises that one extra step you need after revising and editing in order to locate any small mistakes you missed out on until now. Be it some urgent last minute content change or some spelling and punctuation that escaped your attention – this is the time to brush away those invisible blemishes before writing or printing out the final copy.

Tip: For a second proofread, try and pinpoint mistakes reading the text backwards. You’ll be surprised at what you can find this way.


6. The Presentation Stage
After the text itself is ready, it is time to work on some finishing touches with aesthetics polishing your text to perfection.

• If you are handwriting your text, use a ruler to create margins on both sides of the page. Remember to double-space if required by a teacher. Write neatly and legibly!

• When using a computer, be consistent with font usage, spacing, and heading levels. Always be on the look out for more tiny errors for last-minute on-screen corrections.

• In academic papers, adhere to the strict citation conventions, dictated by your style manual.

• Consider using indentation for every paragraph as well as larger spacing between paragraphs.

The writing process may seem long and tiresome, but it is a guaranteed path to success. The more you use it, the sooner you will realize how you couldn’t do without it. This "writing 101" review article has given you the basics.

source : http://sites.google.com/site/freeenglishwriting/

in the early morning


Assalamualaikum,

JUst a simple story of my early morning..

I start my day with prayer and hoping my day will be bright and in a calm day. These morning after packing my son stuffs i send him to nanny house. Today i got a big challenges because my son Umar Rayyan, did not want to get into the car.

He screamed loudly and refused been put into the car seat ... hahaha then i was thinking how to persuaded him...yes.!..Umar look! there are 2 cat is looking at you!..why you screaming..please give mama your smile!..okey..mama will put you on the car seat..seat properly dear...okay.

Even Umar still did not want to sit in his car seat .but quickly i put the belt at him .. then drove straight to nanny house...Alhamdulillah..i have reached to my office..then switch on the aircond and clear some stuff on my table .. turn on my purifying perfect air..ohh smell so good it make me feel fresh..

After had a wuduk and recite surah Al imran in a few minutes ..i feel more calm and now i turn on my pc..and start writting a piece of essay in english which is just a simple story of my life..for beginning of my day done! Now I will start my routine. and also listing my today job to finish it. Bye. Assalamualaikum.

Allah is Great.

Monday, July 4, 2011

berikan daku jalan itu..



Assalamualaikum..

Hanya kesabaran sahaja membalut hati ini..apa yang perlu kita lakukan jika kita terasa dipinggirkan dalam pekerjaan ? jauh di sudut hati,,ingin bekerja dengan ikhlas,tekun, namun apakah jalan yang perlu di ambil jika tiada lorong - lorong kecil sebagai pilihan..Ya Allah sesungguhnya Ujian Mu...membuat aku lebih banyak berfikir dan cuba meningkatkan kesabaran ku..tanpa dorongan dari suami,renungan mata anak yang polos dan comel..dorongan dari kecekalan kakak yang berkongsi bidang yang sama membuat kan hati ini kembali tenang selepas perasaan ini mula berkocak apabila bertalu - talu sindiran dilayangkan kepada aku ibarat pedang tajam menghiris setiap keping hati ku ..


Setiap hari ku panjatkan doa agar..aku dapat melakukan ibadah dan pekerjaan dengan tenang tanpa lalai..Ujian yang melanda ini pedih..sakit yang tidak kelihatan namun ia juga ibarat api yang membakar kaca semakin di bakar semakin kuat ...ya..betul..Allah sayangkan kita..dengan ujian ini ..air mata yang menitis membuatkan ingatan ku kepada Pencipta alam ini semakin kuat..Ya Allah ampunilah aku sekiranya aku lalai dalam pekerjaan ku....Ya Allah ujian ini hanya kecil jika di bandingkan dengan ujian para nabi dan mujahidin..kuatkan lah hati..dan iman ku supaya aku dapat berhadapan dengan setiap masalah dalam pekerjaan ku..berilah daku petunjuk Ya Allah.......

Aku percaya kesabaran akan membawa kemanisan di penghujung jalan nanti..

Thursday, June 9, 2011

Alhamdulillah

Alhamdulillah, akhirnya ibu ku akur dengan permintaan kembarku untuk membawanya ke hospital untuk pemeriksaan kesihatan....Bagi belum tahu ..ibuku menghidapi kencing manis sejak 5 tahun yang lalu, tidak pernah melakukan pemeriksaan doktor entah mengapa hati nya cukup keras untuk ke hospital..katanya berubat sendiri sahaja.. dan berbagai alasan seperti pengankutan..tiada..sibuk mengasuh dsbnya..

Akhirnya..doa ku dan kakak ku dikabulkan juga..pada 8 hb jun selepas 4 hari menyambut harijadinya...kakak ku membawa ibu ku ke kuala terengganu iaitu tempat kakak ku bertugas untuk bercuti di rumahnya sambil di temani adik bongsu ku yang comel dan tembam ...Ummi syaibah .. (anak bongs0 mak) .. Mak akur untuk diperiksa...pada hari tersebut hati ku berdebar..pagi2 sesudah sampai di pejabat aku memohon doa kepada Allah supaya urusan ibuku di permudahkan..


Selesai menunaikan solat sunat dhuha..aku hanya mampu berdoa..tiba - tiba bunyi sms dari handphone..msg dari kaKAK..MAK dah masuk berjumpa doktor..hati ku resah ..aku hanya membalas..kak InsyaAllah mak sihat..

tengahari kemudian kakak ku menghantar sms kepada ku mengatakan buah pinggang dan jantung mak sihat ..gula 16 dan kolesterol lebih 6.3

Apa - apa pun aku syukur alhamdulillah..yang penting kami berdua boleh memotivasikan mak supaya menjaga kesihatannya.. kemudian berdering telefon bimbit ku ...panggilan dari kembar ku...urm..kami berbual mengenai mak..dan yang paling tak suka..kakak memberitahu ibuku baru sahaja bersarapan nasi dagang..aduhhh! mak ..mak..urmm lagi dilarang lagi dimakan..rasanya aku perlu menasihatinya secara perlahan2..aku pun minta untuk berbual dengan mak..selepas panjang lebar berbual mengenai cucu nya Umar Rayyan di akhir perbualan aku meminta supaya tengahari dan malam mak hanya boleh ambil makanan yang kurang berminyak dan bergoreng lebihkan sayur.....tuuut.perbualan pun tamat

Urmm..
hanya ini pinta kami

Mak izinkanlah kami berdua menjaga mak dan bapak sebaik mungkin...izinkan kami berdua membalas jasa mak..membuatkan mak gembira....kerana kami tahu ..mak sudah lama menderita..kesedihan....kami mahu mak tahu.. kami amat menyayangi mak...kerana mak membesar dan mendidik kami dengan sebaik mungkin ...izinkanlah kami menjadi anak yang soleh..selagi kami masih bernyawa........................

Menitis air mata ku...membuat coretan kali ini tapi aku puas..kerana aku juga seorang ibu..dan kini aku lebih mengerti apa itu erti seorang ibu..

Ya Allah ampunilah dosaku . Ampunilah juga dosa kedua ibu dan bapaku dan kasihilah mereka sebagaimana mereka mengasihiku semasa aku kecil.Amin

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Tuesday, May 24, 2011

Terkesima..


Stresss...itulah ungkapan yang dapat aku gambarkan..hasilnya muncullah sang emosi menguasai diri..itulah terjadi pada diri ku...entah mengapa diri ini merasa serabut..tension , geram..hanya kerana tidak dapat menyiapkan apa yang aku rancang dek keletihan ..menguasai diri..menjaga anak selepas penat balik dari bekerja...Hal kerja yang terbeban.. itulah pengalaman yang menyedarkan diri ini..sebagai seorang isteri yang bekerja tidak semua dapat kita selesaikan mengikut kemahuan kita.. Pesan suami tercinta dengan tenang kepada ku..sabar dan banyakkan zikir Subhanallah.Alhamdulillah ..Allah hu akbar..dengan tenang itu membuatkan aku terkesima!...Ya Allah tanpa sedar..aku mengikut emosi ku..merungut..rungut...marah pada suami dek lambat pulang ke rumah..dengan fikiran yang singkat ku sangkakan suami ku sengaja.terus aku merajuk xmahu dibungkuskan makanan kepada ku...Ya Allah..terasa begitu teruknya aku..yang hanya baru menjalankan kewajipan sebagai seorang isteri dan seorang ibu..aku sudah merungut.. Ampunilah aku Ya Allah..


Betul!!

Pagi sebelum ke tempat kerja lembut suami memesan kepada ku banyakkan sabar dan zikir..dan berilah senyuman untuk menyinar hari nya untuk bekerja..Aku menyalami tangannya dan melihat suami memandu keretanya..Aku meneruskan langkah ku untuk bersiap semula ke tempat kerja setelah kami bersama2 menghantar anak ke rumah pengasuh..

Setelah siap aku mengambil wuduk dan bykkan zikir di dalam hati hingga ke tempat kerja..Ketenanngan membalut hari ku ..pada hari itu selepas semalam aku tenggelam dengan jiwa kecamuk..Aku terkesima lagi sekali!

Al quran...agak lama aku tidak mengalunkan ayat2 al Quran..Oleh itu nasihat ku pada diri ku..jangan ulangi lagi kesilapan ini.. dengan penuh semangat aku mencari kisah anak nabi Muhammad s.a.w..Fatimah Az Zahra dengan kisahnya ...ini..hayatilah..



Fatimah Az-Zahra dan Gilingan Gandum

Suatu hari masuklah Rasulullah s.a.w. menemui anakdanya Fathimah az-zahra rha. Didapatinya anakdanya sedang menggiling syair (sejenis padi-padian) dengan menggunakan sebuah penggilingan tangan dari batu sambil menangis. Rasulullah s.a.w. bertanya pada anakdanya, "Apa yang menyebabkan engkau menangis wahai Fathimah?, semoga Rasulullah s.a.w. tidak menyebabkan matamu menangis". Fathimah rha. berkata, "Ayahanda, penggilingan dan urusan-urusan rumahtanggalah yang menyebabkan anakda menangis". Lalu duduklah Rasulullah s.a.w. di sisi anakdanya. Fathimah rha. melanjutkan perkataannya, "Ayahanda sudikah kiranya ayahanda meminta ‘aliy (suaminya) mencarikan anakda seorang jariah untuk menolong anakda menggiling gandum dan mengerjakan pekerjaan-pekerjaan di rumah". Mendengar perkataan anakdanya ini maka bangunlah Rasulullah s.a.w. mendekati penggilingan itu. Beliau mengambil syair dengan tangannya yang diberkati lagi mulia dan diletakkannya di dalam penggilingan tangan itu seraya diucapkannya "Bismillaahirrahmaanirrahiim". Penggilingan tersebut berputar dengan sendirinya dengan izin Allah s.w.t. Rasulullah s.a.w. meletakkan syair ke dalam penggilingan tangan itu untuk anaknya dengan tangannya sedangkan penggilingan itu berputar dengan sendirinya seraya bertasbih kepada Allah s.w.t. dalam berbagai bahasa sehingga habislah butir-butir syair itu digilingnya.

Rasulullah s.a.w. berkata kepada gilingan tersebut, "Berhentilah berputar dengan izin Allah s.w.t.", maka penggilingan itu berhenti berputar lalu penggilingan itu berkata-kata dengan izin Allah s.w.t. yang berkuasa menjadikan segala sesuatu dapat bertutur kata. Maka katanya dalam bahasa Arab yang fasih, "Ya Rasulullah s.a.w. , demi Allah s.w.t. Tuhan yang telah menjadikan Baginda s.a.w. dengan kebenaran sebagai Nabi dan Rasul-Nya, kalaulah Baginda s.a.w. menyuruh hamba menggiling syair dari Masyriq dan Maghrib pun niscaya hamba gilingkan semuanya. Sesungguhnya hamba telah mendengar dalam kitab Allah s.w.t.suatu ayat yang bermaksud:

"Hai orang-orang yang beriman, peliharalah dirimu dan keluargamu dari api neraka yang bahan bakarnya adalah manusia dan batu; penjaganya para malaikat yang kasar, yang keras, yang tidak mendurhakai Allah terhadap apa yang dititahkan-Nya kepada mereka dan mereka mengerjakan apa yang dititahkan".

Maka hamba takut, ya Rasulullah s.a.w. kelak hamba menjadi batu yang masuk ke dalam neraka. Rasulullah s.a.w. kemudian bersabda kepada batu penggilingan itu, "Bergembiralah kerana engkau adalah salah satu dari batu mahligai Fathimah az-zahra di dalam syurga". Maka bergembiralah penggilingan batu itu mendengar berita itu kemudian diamlah ia.

Rasulullah s.a.w. bersabda kepada anakdanya, "Jika Allah s.w.t. menghendaki wahai Fathimah, niscaya penggilingan itu berputar dengan sendirinya untukmu. Akan tetapi Allah s.w.t. menghendaki dituliskan-Nya untukmu beberapa kebaikan dan dihapuskan oleh-Nya beberapa kesalahanmu dan diangkat-Nya untukmu beberapa derajat. Ya Fathimah, perempuan mana yang menggiling tepung untuk suaminya dan anak-anaknya, maka Allah s.w.t. menuliskan untuknya dari setiap biji gandum yang digilingnya suatu kebaikan dan mengangkatnya satu derajat".

"Ya Fathimah perempuan mana yang berkeringat ketika ia menggiling gandum untuk suaminya maka Allah s.w.t. menjadikan antara dirinya dan neraka tujuh buah parit. Ya Fathimah, perempuan mana yang meminyaki rambut anak-anaknya dan menyisir rambut mereka dan mencuci pakaian mereka maka Allah s.w.t. akan mencatatkan baginya ganjaran pahala orang yang memberi makan kepada seribu orang yang lapar dan memberi pakaian kepada seribu orang yang bertelanjang. Ya Fathimah, perempuan mana yang menghalangi hajat tetangga-tetangganya maka Allah s.w.t. akan menghalanginya dari meminum air telaga Kautshar pada hari kiamat".

"Ya Fathimah, yang lebih utama dari itu semua adalah keridhaan suami terhadap istrinya. Jikalau suamimu tidak ridha denganmu tidaklah akan aku doakan kamu. Tidaklah engkau ketahui wahai Fathimah bahawa ridha suami itu daripada Allah s.w.t. dan kemarahannya itu dari kemarahan Allah s.w.t.?. Ya Fathimah, apabila seseorang perempuan mengandung janin dalam rahimnya maka beristighfarlah para malaikat untuknya dan Allah s.w.t. akan mencatatkan baginya tiap-tiap hari seribu kebaikan dan menghapuskan darinya seribu kejahatan. Apabila ia mulai sakit hendak melahirkan maka Allah s.w.t. mencatatkan untuknya pahala orang-orang yang berjihad pada jalan Allah s.w.t. yakni berperang sabil. Apabila ia melahirkan anak maka keluarlah ia dari dosa-dosanya seperti keadaannya pada hari ibunya melahirkannya dan apabila ia meninggal tiadalah ia meninggalkan dunia ini dalam keadaan berdosa sedikitpun, dan akan didapatinya kuburnya menjadi sebuah taman dari taman-taman syurga, dan Allah s.w.t. akan mengkurniakannya pahala seribu haji dan seribu umrah serta beristighfarlah untuknya seribu malaikat hingga hari kiamat."

Perempuan mana yang melayani suaminya dalam sehari semalam dengan baik hati dan ikhlas serta niat yang benar maka Allah s.w.t. akan mengampuni dosa-dosanya semua dan Allah s.w.t. akan memakaikannya sepersalinan pakaian yang hijau dan dicatatkan untuknya dari setiap helai bulu dan rambut yang ada pada tubuhnya seribu kebaikan dan dikaruniakan Allah s.w.t. untuknya seribu pahala haji dan umrah. Ya Fathimah, perempuan mana yang tersenyum dihadapan suaminya maka Allah s.w.t. akan memandangnya dengan pandangan rahmat. Ya Fathimah perempuan mana yang menghamparkan hamparan atau tempat untuk berbaring atau menata rumah untuk suaminya dengan baik hati maka berserulah untuknya penyeru dari langit (malaikat), "Teruskanlah ‘amalmu maka Allah s.w.t. telah mengampunimu akan sesuatu yang telah lalu dari dosamu dan sesuatu yang akan datang". Ya Fathimah, perempuan mana yang meminyak-kan rambut suaminya dan janggutnya dan memotongkan kumisnya serta menggunting kukunya maka Allah s.w.t. akan memberinya minuman dari sungai-sungai syurga dan Allah s.w.t. akan meringankan sakaratulmaut-nya, dan akan didapatinya kuburnya menjadi sebuah taman dari taman-taman syurga serta Allah s.w.t. akan menyelamatkannya dari api neraka dan selamatlah ia melintas di atas titian Shirat".

Sumber : http://almuhajirin.com/

Sunday, May 22, 2011

Ketajaman Mata Hati (Basirah)




Perkongsian hari ini adalah mengenai Ketajaman Mata hati..

Dalam perjalanan ke tempat kerja...halwa telinga seronok melayan radio IKIM.FM dari corong radio. rasa tenang saja sambil memandu..dan yang menariknya pada hari ini topiknya adalah berkenaan mata hati...dimana kesimpulanya..


Basar(mata)sering menipu,manakala basirah(mata hati) sentiasa tepat.Maka,tanyalah pada basirah dan jauhilah tipu daya sang basar...


Sampainya di tempat kerja..saya selalu biasakan berjumpa dengan staff yang lain untuk mengucap salam..kemudian barulah bersarapan..dan barulah menyemak tugasan pada hari ni..

sebelum memulakan tugasan..saya nak berkongsi topik ini dahulu..okeylah masa untuk memulakan kerja di mana ia juga ibadah...

Assalamualaikum..

Monday, May 16, 2011

Big hearted

helping hands.. try to be a handful of big hearted people who care enough about anothers.Yeah! InsyaAllah..!!Malaysia people do care about one another..

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

do it now!

Alhamdulillah after i read 'Do it Now' From the book entitled 'How to get from what you are to want to be' Jack Canfield..lat 4 month .gave me a strong spirit.after read that section ..quickly.in just 30 minute i prepared a few list of my point of view and called them to seat a meeting..that is my first step...! Now i have implemented monthly meeting with my team..alhamdulillah everything going smooth..so now i am listing again what topic and matters for our meeting and discussion..what i'm done is foe every early of the month i will set the date for the meeting...so we will always being together as 1 team...to solve any kind of problem comes.

Just To share!

Monday, May 9, 2011

my heart say.....






Hi..sisters and brothers,

hi to new reader of my blog..nice to meet you here..

i just want to drop a few opinions here about co - operation.and patience in delegate my duty to my team...i could saw a different..they will do it with a sincere and hardwork .. but it took a period of time..not easy to get people co-operation actually without put patience in our mind and soul...

working as an officer gives me .. a big responsibility to carry out.every task...command and control as a motto to my department..but review back my background and interest..i tends to be a teacher..so it was hard for me to get along with all the personality,style,attitude that had been trained or recruited.

I am sorry to all my friends and my department..i could'nt follow or change my personality because i believes to patience..that is my principle.whenever i met my boss, he would remind me or talked about my personality..change2.change2.fatimah..be firm..uhhh..i got many comments there from my friends.n .colleagues ..too..

Thanks to all the comments..i am learning day by day..but the main important things for me is a patience...now i can feel happy because my team now is begin to give me a full support to me..they give a big co operation and if i recall 4 years back it was a big different too!..alhamdulillah..!
the time is passing by...and we as a human will keep continuing our life and learning for everything we are faced either in a carrier..a relation..or from the society ...


i want to be a good teacher...(^-^) yes..we are teacher in what ever field we r in !

Ya Allah please show me the way..to carry all the 'amanah' in my life...InsyaAllah..

Saturday, May 7, 2011

update

Begitu lama rasanya tidak update....akan cuba untuk merajinkan diri mengupdate blogku tercinta ini

Thursday, January 27, 2011

cleanliness

drop by here for a second..........alhamdulillah, today we do small 'gotong royong ' in our office. so feeling fresh..and clean, tQ to my colleague because of the co- operation. So after this maybe 2 times in a month we will do again to make sure working environment always in cleanliness.

cleanliness is important as Laurence j. peter said " if a cluttered desk is the sign of a cluttered mind, what is the significance of a clean desk "

Okep Bye.

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

U have to work for it

hi..oouh so exhausted hihi but i'm fasting today, just arrive at office 11.00 already hehe..but already mention to my boss..

yesterday i read about Yippie saving accaunt, so i decided to make it for my little Umar, early this morning i already in front of maybank. While waiting bank is open, i pay all the bills.usning ceck deposit, ( actually i always pay all the bills through internet )but because of want to wait bank is open ..never mindlah ...fuh feeling fresh after paid averything. About 45 minute wait..the bank is opened.

Badly, i was told, i must bring birth certificate and original ic husband n me..huhuh
but is ok..because all the bill have been paid..so i still manage my bussiness today.

after that.second operation is going to perodua to repair my window car..but also cannot make it. Just change automatic window suis and brake pad..uissh 230..flying..urm :(..i stilll cannot do what i wanna do today..but i work for it..right. hurmm...repair car several hours waiting and also 45 minutes waiting in front of bank..but i still not finish my bussiness..

So i will make sure i do the accaunt when i back to hometown. i will....

Tata..wanna cont. yesterday work. fresh2...happy working.

meeting & discussion

Hi!..So what have u done today? since 8.00 until now? urm remember quote " Do it Now " i'm implemented it into my work ..since came back from confinement leaves i never do any meeting with my colleague. So Do it Now..i just take about 30 minutes ..called them and seat for meeting. Done...Yes!

So.Noted! i will makeseure i'll do everythings that we disscuss today..okey bye..have to stop..wanna continue my work. Tata.

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Journey of dreams. Ups and Downs


Journey of dreams..

I have something worthwhile that I aim for its just a dream when I was youth in my dream I see I’m driving along highway with my own car which that colour is black now I already achieve it I owned myvi metallic ebony black..alhamdulillah but it took 7 years to achieved..

My dream is further my study at oversea, I want to know other culture
My dream is hv my own house
The important is I can speak fluenty.english besides I also can speak Arabic...hope so..we always can havea bundle of dreams..as many as u want but u can try to work for it as u can..happyly..if u fail or down u still hv a chances because for me..times is like a gold..hold it and appreachiate it..never give up..u still hold the gold..and keep on holding it until u success..



U near for it but lost….
1.i’v been as tutor and almost cont master there to be a lecturer..at uitm in geomatic department. But I received Police job and leaved my dream carrier because of I need permanent job to help my family..continue master will use money.

2.after 2 years.. Urmm I almost grab my dreams..continue master and at the same time learn English and Arabic..at UIA.already learn iealts in british council..but almost 1 year after deferment I hv some problems..until now I still not continuing it..it just like a fail to me because I almost near for it..but it loss.


Carier.
My aim is to be a lecturer..to educate people with my knowledge..teach them trough soft way and motivate weak student..because ..back to my Univ Life .i was passive student..so because of that..i wanna help passive student like me..show them the way to rise up their confidence..do research…add more knowledge about islam history..because I love to read Islamic history especially about Woman warrior in Islam…so much dream..i made..wanna have my master and then cont phd..and really want to release my Book..dunno what topic but maybe story or motivation..dunno..yet..


But…


Now I am a police woman…

What my focus in this carier…

Still searching…..

I lost my focus…

What should I do…

After reading How to get from where you are to where you want to be Jack canfield..

I found I still have a chances from here..to where I want to be..

As a Policewoman had tought me many things…from hard things to decision making..it is not easy to become a police if u don’t have strong heart..

Here are my list in my carrier..

--passed all law exam
-- hv knowledge about police area.
--good in police report
--good English
--helping society
--delegate job
--chair meeting
--confidence
--sport


So..after I married, I tends to focus my family, my sons education planning, my savings, buying a house, free debts..sttle down my ptptn..having lovely house with decoration..

How about hobby ..yes, now I got new hobby with my hubby .. we buy 2 gold fish and 5 gappy..and also small aquarium…

Eventhough im happy with my lovely husband and my beloved son.. I never forget my big dreams…it is graduate master degree..with flying colours…for the time being I need to hold it..maybe if got any chances.i want to cont my studies with husband at oversea..maybe he cant cont phd and I cont my master..InsyaAllah…I pray for that..

Monday, January 17, 2011