Friday, November 30, 2012

4x4

i was selected to join 4x4 on 4 nov till 9 nov..at first sight..it must be hard and rough activities. i accepted the trsining by supporfriend of mine..syarina. the supported me that we can do it! this is first activities that all participant were ladies guys..alhamdulillah the programe went excellently. thanks Allah..gave me this rezeki. what i learnt was no matter hard situation you must give 200 % trust to yout buddy..meant your co pilot driver..when faced big obstacle..crossing bridge..river..drove on slippery off road..drove up to hill..we did it and learnt the co operation and..es prit de corp among us. ♥caj!!!!! meant press the gas..go go go...

learning linux..server...the sotware and hardware

alhamdulillah 5 years i am waiting..now.they give me chances to learn the course..eventhough im new actually..not new comers.yeah before this never had this chances..never be guided.never being included...thus..and a lot of things i dont know..about the terms..the concept..the programming language..im positive..i let the ilmu.went into my mind..give atention and syukur..to Allah give me chances.hoping this will bright forever

Monday, November 19, 2012

runsing

again..i was facing with the same situation where. i ill be blamed for not take action towards my job. it happened again..easy to say..i never had job satisfaction. i love my job but the situation i faced is i not received any orders. or guideline or including me in any dizcussion..5 years i keep silent..this situation and again people try point thier finger that im do nothing ..and they got to do all the job.i see the door..but i did not have the key..what should i do..?hijrah? but how?






Thursday, November 15, 2012

im not in the Race.

Had you ever ask yourself what is your weakneses..did you realise or not?and did you also realise your talent?i was thingking about this for the past few years..and today..i'm realise..i was not in the race..i never allowed myself even to get in the race..i know i should but there is something in my heart prevent me..tie me dont do it..thats is principe of mine..was it bad or was is good. This attitude make me..prevent me from show my tallent..show my capability..i dont know..i just dont like to showing of my self.. i dont like race and glad whenever people see you be a winner ..thats me..i know i always been hurted with people..always..people surrounding you will think you are good leader when you can talk loudly..direct people..scream and scold...but when you are soft character you will never be expected can lead people.but for me...i believe..softness can pattern somebody heart..because..that what i believe ..leadership with our prophet Muhammad s.a.w way..he touches people heart..he change people from bad to good just with soft talk and kind heart. in other situation,whenever..we try to show our leadership with intention want your bosses looking at you..was it tell you..that you are lying yourself..you show it because you want  people to look at you. The best way is do the best for yourself.take every challengethat comes to you.

Friday, October 26, 2012

English essay

it is 2338 hours now, but i still cannot sleep because need to write 300 essay for my friends. Actually it is not my assignment but my friend's actually. I help her but my heart start to am i help her or not educate her to sincere in her study...urm...guys help me..give an opinion how should i explain to her this is not the best way in learning. ....

Tuesday, October 16, 2012

Monday, October 1, 2012

Time Management

clock showing 3 am, but I have to work hard, folding clothes, that I target today though sleep at late but must be according to plan, hoping succeed in 15 minutes ... ohh my son wake up !!... need to finish it..here's situation of working women, in order to manage... office and house, time to be sacrificed. may My work completed ...!

Sunday, September 30, 2012

effective presentation skilss

its was about 4 days attending Idfr Course. Misses JOyce and misses wan faezah said we all gell together very fast..ya..reallyenjoyble and,we learnt to be better presenter and also, want to study, practice,learn more about english..ohmy english..ok...i must love read, and write everyday..in english..one thing, i really shy to speak english with my friends..here..uuhhh how...to fluent?...help me..

Friday, September 21, 2012

Daawah..bagaima harus aku mulakan...

Assalamualaikum.. Sudah lama aku tidak mencoret disini,aku baru sahaja selesai balik dari latihan menembak tahunan,alhamdulillah selesai latihan walaupun tidak dapat markah yang tinggi,tak mengapa untuk ilmu. Sepanjang perjalanan aku berbual dengan sahabat ku yang beragama lain... Pelbagai topik dibual akhirnya, masuk ke topik pemilihan agama untuk dianuti anaknya..hal ini kerana mereka berkahwin campur, maka bagaimana agama yang dianuti anaknya, die kelihatan sedih kerana tidak tahu pilihan mana harus dipilih..mahu menjaga hati kedua pihak demi anak tersayang.. Aku.. Mendengar..namun didalam hati, hanya mampu berdoa kepada Allah..semoga dengan kemelut itu sahabat ku dapat menemui jalan yang baik..jalan Hakiki..jalan kembali..dalam hati aku hanya mampu berdoa..hanya Allah yang memberi hidayah..itu semua rahsia Allah.. Tika ini,,rasa mahu menangis..apakah usaha ku..apakah daawah ku..bagaimana?hanya doa dipinta dihati dan mendengar luahannya.. Teringat kisah para nabi kita pada zaman dahulu yang kuat berdaa'wah..begitu..lemahnya aku..Semoga Allah memberi petunjuk kepada kita semua..dan membaiki diri supaya dapat membantu orang lain.. Dakwah adalah salah satu kewajiban bagi mereka yang berkemampuan dari kalangan mulim dan muslimah. Dengan dakwah, Islam terus ditegakkan dan berdiri kukuh dalam masyarakat. Dakwah di atas jalan Allah dengan prinsip-prinsip yang benar adalah merupakan sebesar-besar bentuk ketaatan kepada Allah Ta'ala, sehingga Allah sendiri menyebutkan bahawa sebaik-baik perkataan seorang hamba adalah yang mengajak kepada jalan Allah.

Thursday, August 23, 2012

2012 doodles

Jan - suami kursus tiada coretan menarik

Feb - same as above

Mac - mak datang.... Cameron higland

Apr - SUAMI TAMAT KURSUS. Yeay apply Hlp &univmalaya tayar pancit..

Mei - majlis taalim muaz bin jabal mosque...

Jun - buy dream house...and manage bengkel pengucapan awam conducted by AIdil GHaffar

Julai - makan2 my team and yaasin

August - univ offer letter...sadly have to canceled..due to bought a dream house....

Sept - ready...to hv second one...hehe

Wednesday, August 22, 2012

My Journey Doodle 2012


Assalamualaikum

Happy Eid

to

All

sahabat..

i received offer letter from Univ Malaya but i need to make hard decision and it was really sad, to choose but i believe in rezki.

Again for second time i cancelled the offer letter,, because in between i have made new plan..in my year planning..i and my husband have bought a house at Saujana Utama and, for our future so, i need to sacrifice this year to study so, we can focus on saving money for our future house..

Very sad, because i really want to pursue my study but, at the same time i can see it is also hikmah..

maybe i not really did good planning, and not really deep down what courses that really good to me, to carrier and to ummah..so in this period of time..i promise to study to deep down the courses while waiting to apply again HLP..for next year..InsyaAllah...never give up to gain knowledge..for ummah insyaAllah...


Sahabat..

please pray for my journey..
pray i got chances to gain knowledge..

Assalamualaikum..and Happy Eid too...may Allah accepts our pray and ibadah..

Wednesday, June 27, 2012

Hai awak cikgu ke ? Satu soalan menerpa terhadap ku, apa? Polis? eh xmacam Polis pun,...antara dialog yang sentiasa di lontar kepadaku, begitu juga di satu mesyuarat..." Hai ct, my wife asked me about you, how come your ladies officer, to soft...." itulah pertanyaan dari ketua ku satu ketika dahulu lebih kurang 6 tahun yang lepas, eh akak polis eh ? serious tak nampak polis lansung.... Petang td, ... Maaf saya nak tegur, Puan tak boleh macam ni, Puan pegawai, puan harus nampak tegas, tolong jangan panggil pegawai bawahan sebagai kak..kakak..atau sebagainya..Puan ni , lembut sangat,semua dah ok..yang tu jea.. Ya Allah berikanlah kekuatan kepada ku, aku tahu , cara ku ini membuatkan mereka tidak sedap mata..dan tidak suka, sepatutnya aku mesti,tegas, command and control.. Namun, ini sifatku, persis seperti cikgu, ramai yang berkata begitu..aku menjadi keliru, satu ketika dahulu..ketika dipertikaikan 3 tahun dahulu,namun bila mencari diri sendiri dalam diri sendiri aku terfikir, kenapa aku harus mengikut acuan orang, kenapa aku tidak tegas, mengikut, naluri dan cara ku yang aku selesa.. Adakah ini cemuhan ? Adakah ini teguran ? Adakah ini sebagai pesan seorang sahabat? Adakah ini sebagai amaran ? Adakah berperwatakan lembut adalah salah ? Adalah aku kini keliru ? Pelbagai persoalan menerjah, air mata ku kembali bergenang dan menitis...tika sujud aku berdoa, aku tahu semua ini rahsiah Allah ..Allah tahu kenapa aku ditempatkan di dalam pekerjaan ini.. Pinta ku ..Ya Allah, biarlah apa kata - kata mereka, pintaku , agar aku dapat memberi manfaat kepada sesiapa saja di dalam pekerjaan ini, biarlah aku guna kelembutan ini sebagai medium dakwah ke jalan Mu... Tabahkanlah aku menghadapi .. setiap persepsi mereka... Aku tidak tahu aku akan menitis air mataku .. apabila dipersoalkan begini, namun semakin air mata ini mengalir semakin hati ini meminta.. Ya Allah istiqomahkanlah niatku Ya Allah.....tetapkan pendirian ku Ya Allah.. Bagi ku , Nabi Muhhammad S.A.W sebagai seorang yang lembut budi pekertinya..tetap sebagai pemimpin Ummah...Kalimah Bismillah itu sendiri begitu menyuruh kita mengingati Allah Maha Penyayang lagi Maha Pemurah... ini lah PRINSIP ku....PEGANGANKU...

Saturday, June 16, 2012

inilah hadiah dan doa yg ku pinta

Alhamdulillah, a lot of changes happened to my team..now, i do not have any special words to describe how i feel so grateful to Allah s.w.t, Alhamdulillah..alhamdulillah..when i see thier co operation, thier smile on thier face, thier happiness, thier laughing..that i can listened from my office room while doing my office job, i feel...something make my heart blooming just like a roses. Ya Allah...terima kasih Ya Allah..inilah hadiah kepada ku...tiada hadiah yang lebih bernilai dari melihat keakraban yang semakin terjalin antara pekerja seliaan ku..semoga ukhuwah ini akan terus terjalin..hinggalah kita berpisah.. atau bertukar ke tempat lain. Doa ku hanya satu, semoga Allah memberkati kalian,..Sarjan nor, koperal nani,koperal yati, ibrahim yang akan bertukar, izzad yang kelakar, izzuan yang kecil, dan juga nida yang rajin..jadikan dimana saja kita bekerja..ruang pejabat itu tidak lekang dengan doa dan ayat suci Al Quran,..pasti kita akan terasa kebahagiannya.. Semoga Allah menyuburkan ukhuwah kami dengan nilai kasihNya, dan kukuhkan hati kami dengan sifat jujur, amanah untuk beribadah melalui perkerjaan ini keranaMu.

Tuesday, April 3, 2012

English..i am sad! really! but not give up!


Assalamualaikum..

Two days i made some research about Master Study. This is because it is my list goal for this year which was set in April.I must collect the information about courses that i love to, and good for my future and good for my prospect of my job.

I dont know why i must be emotional about this. Maybe i can't focus to choose.. what i want? what do i love to learn? how about the fee ? the schedule, and is it useful for my job. To much think make me sad and feel give up..but deep in my heart i love to learn the knowledge that i can help people, can be good workers, good supervisor, and can use this knowledge to be a good mom and goo wife also.

Is it technical ? art ? management ? computer sciences? religion ?

what do you guys out there do ? if you are in conflict ? dilemma ? to choose what is your favour actually is it through quiz? is through see what is your talent and that is your interest?

i do read a lot book. i love to study about motivation book and actually in my room now at my office, there are a few motivation books instead of computer sciense or management books that i should read because of my job spec.

but this is my problem

English ....


Can write..but having with so many grammar problem


Afraid to talk ...even on the phone... still GAGAP.


had attend British Council preparation iealts class..but do nothing with it..i am not sat for the exam.


Now, when i want to cont master in humans science psychology , i did call the lecturer and talked to them my problem.

Alhamdulillah, the lecturer that phone , really want to help me and arranges a date for me to seat English test . for this may and then if not reach the requirement..i should back and study english till Excellent for master level . and then i can continue my master there at iium.


Friends ...do pray for me..


Salam

Tuesday, March 6, 2012

Bacaan Yaasin

Alhamdulillah,

Since Dec 2011, i have wrote some targets for 2012 for my group, it was Surah Yaasin recite,so in 28 Feb 2012 we already make it...really happy with the co operation from my team, they seems happy with the majlis..entering to this group once upon a time in 2008, they not really happy with me..but far of my heart i want to do something to this group..alhamdulillah, now, they really close each other..always make a joke to each others and really love to do makan2 together at the office..now i move to other step..do surah Yaasin recite..and i want to do it regularly..so that there would be ukhuwah between them, through Islamic soul.alhamdulillah..

in this organisation,what i did

1st - niat.want to be good supervisor for them

2nd - smile


3rd - close to them..get thier trust

4rt -disscussion always with them

5 - be like a family -)

May we will be close and do the best for our organisation..InsyaAllah

Monday, February 20, 2012

2012 life

Assalamualaikum..

Entering life into 2012,beginning with sweet and sour of my life, i am not saying im no happy but, frankly i not really happy, because i was far away from my love, he is having 6 months courses for DPA now. There is 1 month more left to survive without him, and by this April my life will bright back ! yes, but i'm wondering,why i am not happy ? i must happy ..i must not rely on him..urm..ya, if we put the sadness in our mind, and i will comes out ..and if we put happiness in our mind, we can be happy.

So i'm trying to be happy even without my hubby right now, managing all things , take and send my baby to nanny house. Take a good care of my baby , i can do it by myself..im not rely on him..but still not happy..

ya..i got the answer..when we are married, our hearts becomes one..so when half of my heart far a way..its gonna be different.

waiting for my love..=)